Admission of Guilt (A.K.A. I'm a Cheater)
Have you ever given into temptation and regretted it? I have been a cheater for the last year or so and now it's time to face the music.
I have a problem and it all relates to achievements. See, I let achievements get the best of me. Throughout the course of my ownership of an Xbox 360, I was a slave to the achievement system. I spent countless hours driving myself insane to acquire some ridiculous feats that most people don’t even give a shit about.
But obviously that can’t be the guilt I’m admitting to. Most people would be proud to say they earned some difficult and rare achievement. Yeah, I would be a part of that club if I didn’t resort to cheating.
I hate to have to type that, but I actually became an achievement hacker around two years ago. I learned of a few programs that allowed me to manipulate my gamerscore and I went on a rampage. While I wasn’t completely stupid about the process, obviously I didn’t cover my tracks well enough.
While I should have been dismayed to learn that my account has been branded with the “cheater” label and had all the achievements removed, I’m actually relieved a bit. For a long time, I’ve been trying to get myself away from the whole achievement game. I’ve ruined some good experiences this generation simply because I needed to do “everything” in a title.
When I played the first Assassin’s Creed, I should have given up on it after a few hours. I was bored, angry and I couldn’t stand the combat. I kept going, though, just because I knew I would be able to get the full 1,000 gamerscore. It was the first game I achieved everything in.
Next would be Call of Duty 4, and that leads me to yet another sad discovery. I honestly cannot brag about some of the truly hard achievements I’ve earned. Who the hell is going to believe me, now?
That is when the realization of the gaming community turning its back to my gamertag struck me. I fucked up my connection to all of you guys. I let a stupid point system come between my connection with games and the people who play them.
How can I ever dream to become a gaming journalist if I can’t even play games? Why would anyone want to take my word on titles if I’d rather just cheat my damn way through the game? Why did I do something so stupid?
Well, the main reason I cheated the system was because of my own poor self-image. I couldn’t live with the fact that I wasn’t able to complete a game. I’m not even talking about finishing a campaign mode, because I don’t even give a shit about that. I just mean the stupid achievements!
To think that these pointless merits stopped me from enjoying games for myself boggles my mind. On PS3 and PC, I’m perfectly fine with just playing a title and putting it to rest. Hell, my favorite system is the Wii and that doesn’t even have an achievement system!
Another reason was because I simply wanted to see how far I could take this. Microsoft has been constantly disappointing me with their insistence on becoming an “entertainment” company instead of a game developer. The start of this generation had them focusing on pure games and I was in bliss.
Still, that is a sad excuse for what is ultimately all my fault. If I had better self-control or any sense of respect for myself, I wouldn’t have given into temptation so easily. There is no justification for the actions I did and I am truly regretful.
I’m not filled with remorse over the loss of my achievements, though. I’m sad because I will never be able to voice myself to you guys again. My opinions are null and void when all I would rather do is boost my gamerscore.
If you guys can find it in your hearts to forgive me, I’d be grateful, but I don’t see how that will change anything. I’m a rotten cheater and all of my previous gaming accomplishments mean nothing. I can beast a Call of Duty game on Veteran, but why should anyone believe me?
I'm sure thats true for many ppl, but i dont think we should gerenalize so much. Some will find that the tl;dr stimulates their interest to read the rest of the post more than an intro, and at this point I'd say its a matter of prefrence.
It takes acceptance to move on. That is one thing. Second, you can prove your skill in games you actualy know how to play by actions. CoD is a multiplayer, so that shouldn't be difficult. I'm sure every gamer has cheated or exploited one time or another. Just make sure you don't go back to that dark path and move on.
Well if they're only there to read the tl;dr section then they probably weren't that interested to begin with. If they're reading that section to determine whether or not they want to read the article then having an intro instead of the whole message in one sentence has the same effect. At least that's what I think.
I think of it as constructive critisism, a lot of ppl dont have the attention span to read into an article to know it will interest them, so in theory more ppl will read an article that properly uses the tl;dr function.
Remeber what games were like before achievements or trophies when we would play games for the for the game and not trying to get every single achievement and trophy. Those were the days when we didn't care if we had to use god mode in DOOM or a code to get every single weapon in GTA. I guess what i'm trying to say is just about everyone has cheated at some point. Whether it was using a game genie in retro games, the Konami code, taking advatage of glitch to get past harder areas in a game , or using a password to jump staight to Mike Tyson because you cant beat Super Macho Man. Just about everyone has cheated some point in a game. As long as it wasn't hacking during online play to get an edge everything is ok. But if it means that much to you as one gamer to another I forgive you.
why would even write this? So you cheated eh? So did millions of others, who cares
More if a guy who wants to complete the main story. Very fun to read.
It is not my forgiveness you need, but your own. Learn from your mistake. Put it behind you and move on with your life. Don't let it drive you crazy.
it takes great balls to admit your mistakes. you sir are a real man.
Different opinions; some don't care about completing games while others almost obsessively need to get 100% (i.e. completionists). Neither opinion is wrong.
Based off a lot of the comments here I'd say a number of people care, not for what he did, but more about the fact that he feels bad about it on principle and feels like he owes us an apology for it. First-world problem? Yeah, but consider the web site you're on. If you feel like insulting someone who's already dealing with self-esteem issues while offering no constructive criticism or advice of any sort, well I guess that just makes you a total douche.
It takes courage to accept your mistakes and learn from them and to be able to swallow ones pride and ask for forgiveness.
Why give a fuck about completing games?
I have like 800 games or something and barely completed any of them. I couldn't get past the water temple on ocarina of time, ive never completed an RPG, give up and quit most online games
but who cares???????????
I care not for achievementscore also play through them again fairly and you'll have did them correctly.
And not a single f*ck was given that day
The achievements doesn't bother anyone. If you are talking about hacking, lag switching, and mods then I can understand the apology. Common sense was that you were ruining everyone elses experience online. If you had a headset I'm sure you were very well aware of this. Glad to see see you've abandoned a meaningless score and decided to rejoin gamers and the rest of humanity. Try to keep tabs on your greed at the expense of others.
I can forgive you, since I can be no less virtuous in terms of cheating to beat certain games. While I've never been big on achievements since I don't play a lot of games that have them, I've "dishonorably" beaten a few games that I couldn't finish no matter how hard I tried (i.e. F-Zero GX, Ocarina of Time, Soul Calibur II). Besides, it's not like you said you cheated on something like a job application, which could have a permanent bearing on your future. In all honesty, we are talking about video games in this situation, and as long as it didn't involve cheating someone out of money or something like that, I don't see it as something to beat yourself up over. Still, if this means that much to you, then all I have to say is to continue to learn from this experience and grow from it, which will make you both a better person and a gamer in the end. That being said, more power to you for for admitting something that a lot of gamers wouldn't dare say to anyone, especially the Internet :D
Took the words out of my mouth.
I think youre more of a loser for writing this and thinking anyone really cares, rather than what you actually did.
Don't beat yourself over it. Learn from your mistake and move forward.